Am I enough? I know I ask myself that question often and even multiple times a day. One moment I can be doing great and so positive and confident in everything around me, the next…. The complete opposite. I am a person who also has an extremely hard time opening up to people around me for many reasons. I don’t want to burden them, I don’t want to waste their time, I feel they won’t care? And the biggest one for me is opening up to someone and then all of a sudden they are no longer there.
There are times during the days when I will feel so incredibly sad and alone all I can do is sit in silence or listen to music and just not speak. But then the next minute I can be completely fine. AND I know I am not the only one who struggles with this. There are so many people combatting depression, mental health, no self-confidence… the list goes on. Why is this not talked about more if it is something so many people struggle with? Why is it not something that is more embraced in our world and has more of a support system? I am hoping to use my blog over time to talk about different issues and struggles surrounding mental health and ways I have found to combat or help my moments.
I know from my experience it’s hard to be real. It’s an intimate part of you that you would be sharing with others, and you don’t know how they’ll respond or treat you after you’ve opened up. What if people laugh or ostracize you? That is where I tell myself often enough, “who cares what those people think, because they are not the people who truly care for you.” The people who truly care for you will embrace you and support you in whatever you say or do because they are your parea. Parea is a Greek word for a group of friends/loved ones who gather and connect about life, values, and ideas and nourish and support each other. Who is in your Parea? Who do you feel truly nourishes and supports your soul, your heart, your passions, you as a person? These are the people who you can be real with.
And please be real. Our world and society these days builds up these images of how people should be, how they should look, what they should wear… That so much around me feels unreal now. Don’t put on a façade to be like everyone around you. Break that cycle and mold and be real and human and beautifully unique. Because you are enough. You are more than enough.
These are the words I keep playing and replaying in my head when I feel the sadness and depression setting in. And no they don’t always help. They don’t always make the darkness instantly disappear…. But they are my lifelines and what keeps me going sometimes. And that’s a start. We never will get anywhere if we don’t at least start and keep pushing ourselves. So surround yourself with your parea and get real! Because our world needs realness these days. Xoxo
I have started compiling topics and ideas and even personal experiences I want to start sharing on here about mental health, combatting depression, etc. I just wanted to start out with a brief little post just opening up a little bit to you all. I find definitely during the winter/dark months depression can be the worst and I want to delve into that as well. So I am viewing this as a journey of self-discovery and hopefully a lot of you will want to come along for the ride! This also ties into an earlier blog post I did about finding your kefi, which is the Greek word for your passion of life or what keeps you going during the rough times. Working on finding my kefi has really helped me combat the dark thoughts. So I want to return to that word as well because in all honesty, kefi is probably my most favorite word out there! And as always I’d love to get suggestions, topics you’d like to hear about or things you all have found that help you out personally as well.
All the best!
Photography by Jacob Pace